by Nena Schvaneveldt, former Head Editor, INALJ Utah
What I Learned From the Year of Scary Things
It’s the end of the year/ beginning of a new one, which can only mean reflective lists. I’ve had a year of facing some pretty terrifying things. I know I’m feeling reflective, so here’s a list of scary things that happened this last year:
I went to my first library conference. It’s looking like I’ll be at a national conference next year, and I’m sure my experience at the state conference will help me.
I got promoted! While that’s awesome that my hard work paid off, it is also pretty scary to move up to new responsibilities. Even though I stayed at my same workplace, the new responsibilities were scary. It was an adjustment, and it required some courage to do some of the new tasks. I had to be willing to fail, which can be difficult.
With that, I traveled for work for the first time. Going straight from the airport to a fancy occasion in a city I hadn’t seen in over ten years was an exciting experience.
I made an effort to get outside of my comfort zone in my hobbies as well, volunteering for responsibilities I never have before. I’m not totally comfortable with increased responsibilities yet, but it’s getting easier the more I try.
I came clean about having been fired. The response I got was awesome. While it was very scary to admit to the internet that I have been less than perfect, it was good to be able to process through it. It helped that I’d had years of reflection and a much better track record since then,
Basically, this year I learned that facing fear reduces it. I remember walking away from that library conference wondering why I’d been so nervous about it. Sometimes when I’m feeling fear, I remember that experience. I’ve grown a lot from facing my fears, and I know you can too. Here’s to another year of big scary things in 2014!