by R.C. Miessler, Head Editor, INALJ Indiana
My On-campus Interview
Is this real? While I have experience being interviewed (as well as interviewing), this will be my first full-blown on-campus interview for a job. It’s kind of nerve-wracking. I kind of want to puke. It’s exciting that you think I’m good enough to potentially do the job. It’s terrifying to realize that a lot of things will change if I get this job. And it’s crushing to realize that if I don’t get it it’s going to depress me a lot more than I probably think it will. It’s real, man. Deal with it.
Why didn’t I get my suit altered? I bought this suit probably 10 years ago. It certainly doesn’t fit anymore, and I doubt it’s at the high point of fashion right now anyway … and yet, would I be wearing it even if it did? It’s not who I am. I barely remember to know how to tie a Windsor knot. I just want to be comfortable and professional. Me in a suit isn’t going to give me confidence. If you turn me down because I didn’t wear the crappiest suit JCPenney had to offer, I guess I didn’t want to work there either. Am I trying to justify my choice? Absolutely. Am I making a mistake? I’m sure some people will say I am. But in the end, I’ll pick wearing something that I feel comfortable and honest in. My sports coat looks a lot cooler than my suit anyway, more academic-like, although I need some patches for the elbows.
What happens if I get there and I hate it? How do I sit through a day’s worth of interviews and presentations if I know right away it isn’t a good fit? This is one of those times where the experience is as good as anything, and hopefully make a few good professional contacts, so I need to put my best foot forward regardless. I’ve done my best to read up on the institution, gone through your catalog, read everything on your website, and scoured the Web for any other pieces of information I could pick up that reinforces my desire to move forward with the school. Everything seems to point to a good fit, and that’s probably why you invited me anyway, but there’s still that nagging feeling that this is the wrong choice. I want this to work, so of course I do my best to sabotage it internally. Hooray for anxiety issues!
What happens if I get there and they hate me? I’m fresh out of library school. I have some volunteer experience in a library but in some ways I feel like a fraud, that I should be shelving books for a few years before I have any right to be called a librarian. I feel like I’m light years behind those kids who shot through their BA and MLS in 5 years and got a job right away. I have years of customer service, technical support and management experience, as well as two master’s degrees. I should be able to do this. I can do this. I will do this. Hopefully. Maybe. PLEASE LIKE ME. I’ll make you cookies.
So, by the time this is posted, the interview will have been done, it will have gone great (hopefully), and I’ll be waiting for a response. And if my potential employer is reading this, thank you for not holding it against me. You guys are awesome. Even more so if you give me a job.